Today, is the first day of academic freedom. I finished my second Freshman year of College (PSEO screws you up a lot), and honestly, I am sitting here in my mostly empty apartment and I'm not enjoying it as much as I wish I could. A couple days ago (okay, a week), my roommate Tyler moved out,we never really connected much, but I miss him anyway, Tomorrow morning, my roommate Chris is leaving, and then sometime after that Jeff. They're leaving my life, in the same order they entered it. It's been a year now in College, officially, and I look back over the year, and I think... wow... what happened??
I'm not an optimist, nor am I a pessimist, so I suppose all that's left to be is a realist. I'm sad to see the three guys I lived with, ate with, cleaned with, and studied with leave, knowing the very real chances I won't see them again. The friendships I've; made, lost, rebuilt, and all the others throughout this year are definitely life-changing. The sad part is, the few that I loved so much, are the very same ones I will not likely see either. My CA (for the rest of the world RA) Press, it was like looking into the mirror, there are more similarities than differences, yet the differences are so deeply rooted it's quite really odd we get along. However, none the less, I will miss him, oh so very greatly. there are so many others that have impacted my life, and as per usual they're the ones that last as long as a breath in the Minnesota winter air.
Now, I could sit here, and recount the moments that I will miss for the rest of my life, and utterly depress you, or I could merely tell you the stories, either way pouring words of intrinsically worthless value ad nauseum, or I could say something worth the time you've already put into this.
Time is the currency of the living, and we have no better an economic system than the US Federal Government as it is, yet alas, there is no economic reform for this. God gave us a credit card, and we eventually have to pay the balance. it seems that the running theme in each post has been to impart some kind of urge to do something, and it seems that this one is of no exception. Life is expensive, the cost of living inside the Human Body is immense and if the Russians were more philosophically minded I'm sure they'd have revolted here too. We spend out use our cards on people, work, school, video-games, books, food, and sleeping, and that can comprise the fullness of one's life. I don't want to advocate that we spend less or even consider the wisdom involved in people, so I wont, but perhaps we should check, and make sure we're investing in people not tithing. Within the last few days a friend of mine got a call that her aunt had died, my best friend lives with the fear of getting a phone call saying her Husband was KIA, my mom lives with the same terror, and yet I woke up this morning and couldn't have cared less about any of it, I just laid there and tried to muster the decision making powers to resurrect my body from its nocturnal damnation. Maybe, we should spend a little less time caring about what happened last night, and a little more on how to make today worth the memory. Maybe instead of our first tweet being about the hangover from the party, it should be "WATCH THIS SPACE" and then make it worthy of the comments, and questions, and recount the awesomeness of our day.. maybe we should use our card more on a meaningful moment with a new friend, and less on the fight...
so... in anticipation for tomorrow...
I'm not an optimist, nor am I a pessimist, so I suppose all that's left to be is a realist. I'm sad to see the three guys I lived with, ate with, cleaned with, and studied with leave, knowing the very real chances I won't see them again. The friendships I've; made, lost, rebuilt, and all the others throughout this year are definitely life-changing. The sad part is, the few that I loved so much, are the very same ones I will not likely see either. My CA (for the rest of the world RA) Press, it was like looking into the mirror, there are more similarities than differences, yet the differences are so deeply rooted it's quite really odd we get along. However, none the less, I will miss him, oh so very greatly. there are so many others that have impacted my life, and as per usual they're the ones that last as long as a breath in the Minnesota winter air.
Now, I could sit here, and recount the moments that I will miss for the rest of my life, and utterly depress you, or I could merely tell you the stories, either way pouring words of intrinsically worthless value ad nauseum, or I could say something worth the time you've already put into this.
Time is the currency of the living, and we have no better an economic system than the US Federal Government as it is, yet alas, there is no economic reform for this. God gave us a credit card, and we eventually have to pay the balance. it seems that the running theme in each post has been to impart some kind of urge to do something, and it seems that this one is of no exception. Life is expensive, the cost of living inside the Human Body is immense and if the Russians were more philosophically minded I'm sure they'd have revolted here too. We spend out use our cards on people, work, school, video-games, books, food, and sleeping, and that can comprise the fullness of one's life. I don't want to advocate that we spend less or even consider the wisdom involved in people, so I wont, but perhaps we should check, and make sure we're investing in people not tithing. Within the last few days a friend of mine got a call that her aunt had died, my best friend lives with the fear of getting a phone call saying her Husband was KIA, my mom lives with the same terror, and yet I woke up this morning and couldn't have cared less about any of it, I just laid there and tried to muster the decision making powers to resurrect my body from its nocturnal damnation. Maybe, we should spend a little less time caring about what happened last night, and a little more on how to make today worth the memory. Maybe instead of our first tweet being about the hangover from the party, it should be "WATCH THIS SPACE" and then make it worthy of the comments, and questions, and recount the awesomeness of our day.. maybe we should use our card more on a meaningful moment with a new friend, and less on the fight...
so... in anticipation for tomorrow...
WATCH THIS SPACE
Perhaps only one, but we are a good example of where efforts are wasted and where efforts work..
ReplyDeleteRemember when I said ignorance is bliss? Sometimes we forget that the saying should only pertain to the negatives in life...but more often that we should, we ignore the good moments, the good people, or just good opportunities. Some things just aren't worth it, but there are so many things that ARE worth it, and they deserve to be more recognized by everyone! I'm gonna take you up on 'Watch This Space' and put this into practice in my own life.